Tuesday, March 22
stoning away, thinking about went on today.. it was a peculiar day. i guess i'll go thematically. =D if there's such a word. anyway. i was carrying so many things to school today that i accidentally left my phone in the car on the way to school and therefore felt very crippled the entire day. every time i wanted to call jean or anyone, i had to borrow someone's phone. i pity their bills because i can be very long winded. haha.
results - rushed to the board when the postings were put up. had a tough time finding my i/c number. am fairly convinced that that, indeed, is my own. it had better be because i've told everyone i'm staying. anyway, jan and i called jean up to find out if she got into hc. it was
nerve wrecking waiting for her to check her results. i went back to the class bench to sit, instead of going for pe.. then i turned around and saw jan running towards me from the inner plaza.. and i knew it was jean on the line.. ran towards her.. damn, i always do that drama thing like i belong in a soap opera.. jan said 'she didn't get in'.. my world collapsed.. i was so hoping she'd join us and make everything okay again.. i think jan and i kinda clung together for a while.. and my heart felt like it had hit rock bottom in my stomach.. jan put her arm around me and i held her by the waist and we walked around and around side by side on the phone.. i couldn't understand how a 6 pointer didn't make it to hc.. then we finally hung up and jan and i left for our own classes. except i never went for pe. in the end i got so agitated wondering what was going on at the other side, i borrowed my classmate's phone and called jean to find out how she was taking it.. she was sobbing and the sound of it was heartwrenching. i wanted so much to be by her side and hug her and make everything okay, but bukit timah and upper thomson are worlds apart. in the end arranged to meet her after school to accompany her to appeal. so after school i hurried down to the wings after econs tutorial and met jan.. called jean and hurried over to st. marg's to meet her. i swear i never walked such a distance so quickly before.. she got her testimonial, we went to my place to type out a formal letter to the hc principal then went to hc to hand in the form.. i swear, she'd better get in. 6-pointer. i told my sister and she couldn't believe it.
turns out my sister had been trying to call me all day.. about 6 times.. but my phone wasn't with me so i didn't pick any of her calls up til she called again half an hour ago.. didn't know she was so anxious to know if i needed to appeal. haha.
kranji/funkyhairedgirl/theonemello'smadlyinfatuatedwith/peiyi- i don't think she went for
any lessons at all today. maybe cos her closest friend in hc's going to science and they wanted to spend the day together. well there they were, looking all morose and scaring the hell out of me.. i thought she had to leave! the class was starting to move off for lit.. and i saw she wasn't going.. and i thought, if she leaves and doesn't go for lit.. my life as i know it will come to an end.. then i made the mistake of saying it out loud.. and got dared to walk over and ask if she's staying. wonderful. i am a big fat coward. so i refused to, obviously. i can't rmb why, but i ended up going over to their bench in the end and asking siok chen if she got into science like she wanted to.. then su min asked her if she's staying.. both affirmed the positive.. then siok chen said, 'oh you're going for lit?' cos we were carrying our bags.. and i was like ' yeah, you're not?' to both of them.. and peiyi said 'oh we're not going for lit'.. and blah blah we talked for a bit. conclusion - she's either got an accent or she's very articulate as su min claims. now, i think accents are sexy! take for an example anna in van helsing which we watched during the lit lecture today. very sexy. =D but her accent isn't that sort. it isn't a cheena accent. or indian. i can't place it. i wonder if she's even singaporean. but su min claims she's just very articulate. okay. hopefully people don't think i've got an accent too, just because i don't speak in a cheena sing-song manner. strangely, she had less of an accent the last time i sat behind her listening to her bantering with her friends. i hope i don't have that intimidating effect on her that i seem to have on a number of school/classmates. i bet she doesn't even know my mother, so what's there to be scared of? conclusion - my life as i know it has only begun. at least she knows i exist now right? =D and that i'm a very random person who likes to go up to random strangers and demand to know if they are staying. or maybe -gasps- she knows i like her. ah what the hell. i feel like extending the deadline from monday to the end of next year. bleaugh.
the beginning is ending. i wonder what the next part brings. there's something missing in my heart.
it must've been love.
8:04 pm
xoxo
